Went back to Hougang Sec in the morning, as today is Teachers' Day celebration back in school. Met teachers and watch concert, but din't stay long for the concert. Walked around school and indeed brought back memories. Lots of memories in school. We went back to our former 5A1 classroom, nothing change besides the students inside. The arrangement of the seats are still the same. It'd been 2 years, since I graduated from there. Time really flies.





The GEO lens I ordered.











{{我愛你 太強烈 我該往後退
愛情的底限 也許我不該跨越
我愛你 太遙遠 我還學不會
愛情的界線 我站在邊緣}}

Hello holiday.! Holiday is here but it keeps me away from meeting you =X . Blahs. Therefore, I dislike holiday. LALALA ~

Went SSDC early in the morning to register for refresher course, was an empty trip again and I din't register it. Then headed home, and I'm going out soon for tennis. =))

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Back from tennis with Seet, Lam, Louis, Danny and Junye. I really did exercise alright, I'm sweating and I stinks. And now my back, upper thigh and hand hurts. It's aching. Massage please. Marcus sms me just now while I was playing tennis. Alright, to solve doubts, this Marcus isn't the Marcus in Hougang Secondary alright. Initally wanted to sms him about his btt but forgotten it. Alright, he sms me that he passed him BTT. Congrats boy =))

Alright, memories are kept deeply but images are slowly fading. It's a good thing, that I can put things down and start life anew =)). I'd been struggling thru this few days, always wondering did I chose the right thing and made the right choice. Everything came to a conclusion today, and it's ending today.




I need to get myself a street directory .



나는 바보야 -.!!

Finally, semestral examination papers are all cleared. Went school early in the morning to study for CMaths. Had CMaths paper today and was a "good" ones. My A is gone now. Meet sis up to get my sprees from her, and headed to bugis with cliques. Inital plan was to get shade, but end up I got myself 3 sets of unwearable earrings. I've no idea why I bought it, just want to buy it. Then walk to Little India and train home with Aud, Lam and Louis. It's freaking cold, and finally tomorrow can sleep till late and no worries for exams. It's all over. I'm craving for his favourite cheese prata. Never ate prata with cheese before besides egg. Shall get it try one day. =)) He told me not to drive there, because my parking is CMI. I need job and I need cash to go shopping. LALALA ---

Hurrary, Motorcar Refresher Course teaches student to park without poles. =)) Actually, I just need that. Hmm, and it teaches expressway too. Alright, shall make a trip down again and ask for it. =)) 104, here I come again if YOU can coach me. Tadah -

Ciao, watching Hot Shot =))



So I hold it and you hold it, the promise of tomorrow

I'm actually shivering at home. Freak, C-O-L-D!!!! Give me some warm hugs please.

Alright, went hub to get some stuffs with Crystal. It'd been quite long since I last saw her. We slack at Mos Burger and I uses the water to write 104. She thought I was writing my birthday, and I told her, that's my training car number. It's so coincidence right. 104 = my birthday, and that's the reason why I love this car so much and why I always wanted to fixed him. Then headed back to grandma's place. I went to took bus and bump into Granny and Grandpa. They went to watch movie. So sweet of them went to watch movie together. Haha. Okay, there's some reason why I wanted to take bus instead of train. I somehow regretted after I board the bus, because I knew I won't get to .............. Alright, it's over. Stayed at grandma's place till daddy came to fetch us. Daddy pass me his key because I didn't bring mine. Then I drove the car home. Mommy was real funny because she thought daddy was the one driving instead of me.

Mommy: (opening the front door) Eyeh, I thought you(daddy) driving. How come she drive?
And then mommy went to the back and daddy came in front.
Mommy: It's raining now, you(daddy) drive lah, don't let her drive. (in a worry tone)
(*because there was once I drove and it was raining heavily and I nearly bang into a car)
Daddy: Just let her drive, she has to get use to all kinds of weather condition, be it raining or at night she has to learn. Your mom doesn't trust you.
Me: Mommy, how can you be like that. I pass my TP for a reason. I'm a safe driver.

And I drove all the way home. The rain was heavily, but wasn't that heavy like what I use to get during training period. I told daddy I'll going ECP next sunday, and he told me to drive the car there. Alright, now I've premission to drive the car but I don't know the way there.

Alright, I need to get my CMath past year paper practise done. It's my last paper today and days to enjoy before next semester starts. And frankly speaking, I'm so looking forward for MIT0803 class chalet in September.

Ciao people

Went out to study with rui. Daddy sms me that I can use the car after 3pm today. Initially wanted to drive out for stroll, but it's raining outside and I kick the idea off my mind. Finally, daddy allows me to drive alone, I guess so. =))

Nicky Lee is back with his 4th solo album. The songs are not bad. My dearest Hyesungie is back with his 3rd album. I think this is his album before he went to army. I'll definitely miss him badly after he's gone. Anyway, I'll order his album if SHCJ is preordering it.

Thanks to rui, she helped me borrow this Elementry Korean book. It's a good book, that I can continue practise and learn Korean Language myself. Trust me, I gonna master Korean well. =))

나는 할 수 있다!!!!







我想念的人 會不會懂.-

Hi people, I'm home after squeezing my brain juice in school with Wendy and Ray. Tomorrow going to study with Rui, and I'm going to bring my Amaths textbook out to do the Differentiation and Integration questions. =)) Just one more paper to go, so everyone let's just bear with it. JIAYOU MIT 08 students.

I saw Alan at Koufu, surprisely we're schoolmates still. In both Hougang Secondary School and Nanyang Polytechnic. Alright, we were once classmate too. I still remember that very unique and special chinese compo he wrote that's filled with vulgarity and he even handed that compo in for Mdm Hoo to marked. It's really funny after getting to read that compo with all the TMD I guess it most of the sentence. I missed the fun I'd in school =))

Out of boredness during our studies, the three of us went to change our handphone number into Binary, and change it to Octal and Hexadecimal as well.
binary - 101111000000010001001001111
octal - 570021117
hexadecimal - 5E0224F

I emailed them again. I just don't understand why I can't fix my fixed to coach me with this and that course. I mean, he's a instructor too but why he only coaches normal lesson but not others. And I've my reason why I just want him to coach me. He knew my goods and bads because I've been his fixed for so long and also one thing, he knew what I'm afraid off. That's why I wanted him to coach me again, so he can change and improve all this for me. =))

I'm once again hocked with Kara's If you wanna. =))

FT Island babies are back with their 2nd album. Noona's favourite Minhwan dongsaeng and lately loves Hongki dongsaeng. I just simply can't resist my love for them, especially this adorable little drummer. MINHWAN ahhhhhhhh......

but ... I still love him more. =))

I might not know who is he, I only know his death causes his fan to be so heartbroken. Eon, original name Park Sang Min died from a motorbike accident on 21st August morning on the spot with his neck broken. Again, another celebrity in the Korean Entertainment Industry got killed from a motorbike accident and again, a fatal ones. Fans of Eon oppa, please don't be too upset. Eon doesn't want to see you guys behaving like this. Just remember, Eon had went to a place without pain. He'll meet Minsoo and Turtleman up there. Eon oppa, may you rest in peace and may you live well in heaven.

And I just realise, Minsoo left us for nearly 4months.

Went to collect my photocard licence today, finally there's another card in my wallet. I look dead funny in the licence. Who cares, I won't take it out unless traffic police check on me right. Everything seems so unreal, it's just like I just started off yesterday and it ends today. Haha. I remembered the very first day I start learning, I was so nervous and I don't even dare to step on the pedal. I really thanks the school, for allocating me to 104. I was in the beginning worrying whether the Instructor will be a Chinese or what, and will he be fierce, but it turns out well. He's not fierce and infact a very nice one that I decided to fixed him after that. And now, it's totally a different case. I'm not scare of the pedals but the traffic only. I drive with confident, and with the word Instructor told me to "drive safely". It's now still a habit that I'll still got to the website and check stuffs out when it's not necessary now. Anyway, I'll always remember being a student there. And definitely the memories I'd with training car 104 and the owner =)) If we meet on the road one day, let's stop and have a short chat yay =)).


Had pepper lunch with sis then went compass point. Then headed home. And went carpark to practise parking. Saw this young fellow starting his bike, I pass by him and he kept staring at me. Oh boy, I've QDL kaes. I haven't start studying for CMaths yet. Mugging later at night. Photos on yesterday Steph's birthday celebration below. =))


Taking photo in the toilet with the help of the mirror. Cool right.
With Tiff.

My photocard driving licence.

我以為我成熟 以為從此就自由
我嘗試著快樂 快樂卻不陪著我
愛沒有回來了 你已經離開我
回憶緊緊纏著我 像當初不肯放手

我以為我成熟 以為我能好好過
我嘗試著墮落 當我想你的時候
愛不會回來了 你已經離開我
卻一直住在我心中

Alright, I don't feel like saying about my COS paper. It's CUI-ED with a damn big capital c. I left a lot of blanks and almost undo-able. Yes because I didn't have enough preparation for it. And actually I've prepared for the worst to repeat this damn boring module. Just hope I pass alright. We celebrated Steph's birthday after that. Went SSDC, to register for the expressway. But in the end, I didn't register because Instructor didn't coach expressway. Okay, now I've absolutely NO reason to go back there. Goodbye, and thanks for the wonderful memories given to me. Deeply remembered. Alright, I knew my trip there was a wasted, but I saw Instructor and I even walked past him. Kuku him didn't see me, alright he always say that I'm short. Went to take 70 home, it was lesson time and saw 104 passing by me. Instructor saw me with his very funny shock expression and wave HI to me, being a nice girl and ex-trainee of his, I smile to him and wave HI to him. The poor postman came to my house delivering my photocard licence, but no one was home so he drop me a note asking me to collect my photocard licence at Singpost.

a-Lin is back with her 2nd album, and the slow melody songs are catching all my attention. 今晚你想念的人是不是我, P.S.我愛你 and 難得 are really nice.

今晚你想念的人是不是我
我在黑暗之中尋找幸福的下落
等待原來那顆流星劃過我的天空

P.S.我愛你
我愛你沒有保留
我愛你就到最後
有些人值得等候
有些悲傷值得忍受

太陽不會放棄天空
哪怕你不再屬於我

難得
我嘗試著快樂 快樂卻不陪著我

我以為我成熟 以為我能好好過
我嘗試著墮落 當我想你的時候




HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, STEPHANIE. =))




hey, it's 2weeks anniversary today.


And he still remembers. =))
i smile because of him.

Went school for OOP semestral exam today. Alright, the paper was do-able. Yet, I screwed up my Array question. As expected, the array question was SCANNER class and not JOPTIONPANE class. WTF please, I only touch that class yesterday night and that question came out. Alright, at least I know I won't flung this paper. Now is time to worry for COS, a very OMG paper. Full of theory to memorise. Goodness, someone please save me. Then went SSDC because I wanted to get my expressway course registered. BUT the customer service lady told me the approximately waiting time for the registeration is 2HOURS. My god. I should have knew it'll be damn long, is not that today was my first day being a student there. Alright, she asked me to come back tomorrow morning to register, and fine I'll go back tomorrow morning to register for it. PROVIDED I can fixed my instructor, if not I'll not let SSDC earn. =))

I need to go study for tomorrow's paper.






it'll be 2weeks anniversary tomorrow =))

Had a great sleep, just don't need why I can't get my eyes open when I'm actually awake. Didn't really study yesterday. Watch Windstruck again, this movie never fails to make me cry no matter how many times I watch. After that cry yesterday night actually made me feel much better. It seems that there's always a solution for that problem, although that solution might not be the best. I think, this is just a habit. Hmm. I always want to get this habit off me, but it seems to be so unchangeable. Alright, I'm off for final revision. =))

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Taking a short lunch break before I start mugging again. I emailed SSDC yesterday night regarding to the expressway course. Finally they replie me. Thanks a lot. I can fixed the instructor for this course if he's around. HAHA. I can finally bully him again, on the expressway. HAH. Okay, I'll go register for this course on Wednesday. =))

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, to my dear friend Jemaine.
We haven't been seeing each other since we graduated from primary school. Yes it's primary school. A bestie of mine during that childhood period. We quarrelled and we argued, and still we're friends till now. It'd been so long, and a friend I treasure lot. =)) Sweety, all the best in your studies and future. Let's just continue to keep in touch and maintain our friendship. Love you friend. =))








when a woman loves a man .....
我試圖去尋找愛情 和我們之間的關係

Alright, I don't need is my eyes playing a fool with me or is the internet explorer's problem. The whole page of blogger seems to be extremely bright today. Or maybe it's just my desktop problem too. Anyway, went out with parents, granny and elson just now. Elson wants me to drive, so I drive them to AMK. I passby NYP, which is one of the test route for SSDC test car. And that reminds me of the days when he kept bringing me to this "favourite" test route of mine. I always had problem doing lane changing there, and even up to the state that the traffic is so heavy that I can't even get in time to do the U turn and missed it and a brand new test route was created by us. I'd made up my mind, I'll go back to SSDC to ask for more detail regards to the Motorcar Expressway Course. After this course it'll really be a goodbye to SSDC. =)). As for PSP, for time being I doubt I'll be buying it. You know, I'm always fickle minder. For one moment I'll want to get it badly, the other moment I'll get sick of it. So, before I buy it I'll have to get into deep thinking. Dad says only after I prefect my parking then he'll let me drive alone, because I always get stress up when dad is beside me.

Table tennis historical match tonight, it's a MUST watch. I caught the replay match between Singapore and Korea yesterday night. Hmm, the girls done Singaporeans proud yay. So all the best for you girls tonight.! After 48years of history, finally a medal from Olympics. =)) //* After match review. Hmm The girls didn't won Gold, but that doesn't matter. They won a Silver, and finally we get to see Singapore flag flying high in Olympics game after 48 long years. Girls you done us proud alright =)) Congratulation to China and South Korea too.

One should never criticise ones talent if one doesn't have it. =))

T.H~!!!! YOU . Thanks, at least by mentioning your name brightens up my day. You know, I just simply can't stop smiling just by mentioning your big big name. You made me forget the wrong stuffs I've done, even it's temporary but at least I din't think about it. T.H - muacks....iloveyou-



jobjobjob

Derrick's 克罗地亚的天空 is very nice.

Went studying with rui today, finally our concentration period last more than 2 hours. I don't know what to update also. I'm kind of tired but yet I need to study for COS. OOP is mostly done, only left StringTokenizer and abit of Array. I guess it won't be a problem scoring for this module. So everyone jiayou. I shall now mug hard for COS, I don't want to see this COS boring lecturer again.

I want to save money. Cannot be so spendthrift anymore. I get myself a goal/target, and that's I WANT TO BUY MY OWN CAR. Save money and buy a car. Sounds very unreal right. But I'm being serious. I want to work and save, and buy my own car. What's your aim for after achieving a lifetime driving licence? And that will be getting your own car. Alright, I set up my mind. Stop being spendthrift and buy things without thinking thru my stupid brain and also buying those very unless and unnecessary things.

I think, I'm in the wrong. This, shouldn't happen yet I let it happen. It's wrong, totally and extremely wrong. I'm just that dumb and that stupid.


DBSK - Miduhyo Live

I missed my sexy hottie jaejoong and my dolphine junsu. =))






나는 틀린 사람과 사랑에 빠진다.



The best way to forget something, is not to get involve to anything related to it.

Went school to study with Wendy initially, then we bump into Lam and Tiffany outside the lecture hall. So end up the 4 of us studied together. Study till 3pm and we left for AMK hub. Wendy went to buy her handphone strap, then headed home. I shall not touch any modules today, I just want a good rest before I start mugging again tomorrow. I've been mugging for this past few days, shall just give myself some rest. Bump into Rongshan and Ros just now at hub, if Rong shan didn't call me, I won't see the both of them. Haha. Gonna watch Hot Shot now. =))

Met Lam and Louis up at Compass Point to study java. Watch Hot Shot just now. Haven't touch my study material yet. Now I'm going to study. Tomorrow studying again =)). I want a nice GPA score, I want a good elective for next semester so I need to buck up. I need money. And sometimes, I hate myself for not continuing my Korean Language. I'm giving things, I hardly can take it anymore. Peharps, I guess I need some real good rest during my vacation. Or, maybe I shall go for a short overseas trip. =))



아주시....!나.. 너무 정말 보고싶어요.
어떻게?
나는 이것이 사랑다는 것을 짐작한다.
그러나 ~
우리는 결코 쌍이어서 좋다,
우리는, 여보세요 안녕 친구 단지 이다.
그리고 지금, 나는 당신을 더 이상 보지 않을 것이다.
나는 항상 당신을 기억할 것이다. 이렇게 저를 역시 기억하십시오.
그리고 나는 당신에게 나가 도로에 당신을 볼 경우 높을 것이 말할 것이다.
이렇게...........................
안녕 지금

Went school in the morning to do self study on OOP, then later on went to find Mr Son to consult him about java. Went home after that and went to cut my fringe. After that went to learn parking myself. So I drove around the car park like a mad lady. Alright, I think my parking improved but the car still slant abit but better then before. I shift daddy's original parking out. HAHAHA. Went to buy 4D just now, if only I strike 4D tonight then I'll go back for expressway course. =)) Didn't strike 4D, was just a number different. Alright, I make up my final decision. I'll go back for expressway course during my September vacation. So meanwhile I've to asked dad to transfer the fee to me fast. And my PSP, hmm I'll think about it. Screw that damn Java up. Bites, curses and swears. Argh madness over it.

I saw Hong Gil-Dong DVD/VCD out in poh kim. But holy it's gonna cost me 50bucks to get this show. Arghs.

I chat with Ching just now, asked her if company still need help. Because I'm so desperate for cash. Partially lah, just also I don't feel like rotting at home, and also, I missed them so much =)) Just hope that I can go back to help them. Wait for her news tomorrow.

We changed, don't we?


Hello. It'd been 1 week anniversary today =))

Water Fight's fighter and rider. LOL

OH SEET!!!!!

Tadah. with my baobei. =))

Had my day start off with meeting Wendy up at YCK station to meet Audrey up at Bugis. Alright, while waiting for bus and so unexpectedly I saw Instructor Adrian wearing his favourite NEW BALANCE sunglass inside my favourite training car 104 passing by me. He didn't saw me because that car is in motion, so I didn't get to ya say HI to him. This is not the main point. Went bugis with them because they're buying some girl stuffs. So I accompany them there to show them the shop I bought it from. Everything settled and we went lunching at Mos Burger. Louis, Tiffany and Junye joined us later. We went roaming around bugis, went to the DHL balloon. Didn't went up partially because of the price, and ya I've phobia for height. If you want to bring me up to either DHL balloon or even Singapore Flyer, kill me and then bring me up. BUT with a capital B, I want to give a try out at Singapore Flyer, maybe at night since everything is dark and I won't be able to see the ground, then I won't freak out of the height. Then we walk to Suntec and chill out there. Louis, Audrey and Junye played with their PSP while me, Wendy and Tiffany camwhore. I'm tempted to get a PSP, and ya maybe checking out the price at IT fair and if it's reasonable then I'll get it after negotiating it with daddy. And there's a lot of stuffs I want to get at IT fair. Keyboard skin/protector for my poor white lappy which soon going to turn into yellow and black. A new thumbdrive because my current ones seems to be dieing anytime. A better quality iPod earpiece because current ones seems to be too big. And yes, a white PSP!!!!!

Alright, bought my long craving Donut Factory's spicy cheese donut home to eat. CHEESE my favourite after all. And tomorrow, a sentosa trip with cliques. =)) Will load the photos we camwhore today up after I got it from MIT0803 photobucket.

I drove dad's car with his accompany. I went to CTE today. And dad pass me his car key. But I'll only drive the car occasionally.

AND .....



I missed you ...
All the pieces and pieces of memories ...
Can time even be rewind backward?



Happy 43rd Birthday, Singapore.

Alright, two killing papers today. I'm not feeling well, having stomach upset. Blahs. And I've a big pimple on my upper lip, this is killing me too. It's filled with pain. ARGH. I received my graduation email from SSDC, this is making me so uber upset about my leaving. Anyway, I'm planning to go back for Expressway course. Hmm, but meanwhile before I confim whether I'm going, I've to make sure that I'm able to fix my favourite Instructor Adrian to guide me with this expressway thing. You know I know, I missed bullying him. So maybe after Daddy transfrer my driving learning fee to me, then I'll make a trip down to SSDC to clarify with this course. Daddy hasn't transfer that 2K+ to me yet, and I'm absolutely broke. Okay I'm off for last minute revision and back to school =))

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Went back school at 1pm to prepare for Comm Skill paper at 2pm. Anyway, comm skill paper is full of craps and my answers are all craps too. My mind totally went blank and just can't remember what I just studied. Anyway, I've prepared for the worst. Had a break before Database paper starts at 430pm. It's another killer paper. Hmm I manage to do some questions but majority of my answers are again craps. I manage to do SQL question since I've studied it, but I've no confident that it's going to right. Fine, prepared for the worst too. Finally 2 papers are done and it's only now to struggle for semestral paper. Life is abit boring to me now.

Can someone please kindly give me the definetion of yaya papaya?

I've to admit I really graduated from SSDC.

I didn't have a good sleep yesterday night. I slept real early yet I dozed off and wake up again and again. I was just too mentally nervous. Today was my important day. Yes, was my Traffic Police Practical Test today. That's why I was chionging for revision lessons lately. I'd my test at 155pm, and reach SSDC at around 1230pm to prepare for the warm up session at 1pm. Thanks to the warm up Instructor. He taught me a few things before I went for the actual test. My warm up was done with not much problem except the slope in the circuit, and late braking outside. I wasn't demoralise by it. I just tell myself not to have the same mistake later. I gotten test route 9, and the tester doing the briefing was the tester taking me. He was a nice tester, I was wondering he's testing me or guiding me. Before that, I passed my practical test with FIRST ATTEMPT, and gotten 6 demerit points. 2 in the circuit over this ramp reversing, and 4 outside the road for incorrect positioning and delay in moving off. =)) Tester said there isn't much problem in me. I'm now finally a qualified driver after 2 months plus of learning in SSDC. I finally graduated from Singapore Safety Driving Centre. 6th August, a date I'll forever remember. I waited for Instructor Adrian to come while waiting for my turn to make the licence and get back my student booklet. And I manage to find him finally. I pass the THANK YOU card to him personally, and he asked me how was my test. So I was smiling happily and telling him I passed. So he asked how many points I got. I told him to make a guess, so he said "Ten?", and I shake my head, and he goes "Fourteen?", and I shake my head again. So he asked me how many points I got, so I told him "Six". And he said "Hey, not bad leh". So he asked if I'm happy and congratulate me with his wet wet handshake. HAHA. Before he went off, he kept reminding me with that "drive safely okay", "can drive your lancer horh, drive safely okay.". A really big big thanks to him. Instructor Adrian, I didn't spoil your reputation okay, I even help you to build up your reputation and I bet you didn't clean that yellow wall for me to bang. Thanks thanks thanks, a million and billion of thanks. I wouldn't be seeing you anymore, and my favourite 104 training car, that's what I'll miss most. Maybe I should consider to go for some refresher or expressway course horh. I'll miss the days bullying you. =)) And cannot suan you with your NEW BALANCE sunglass, cannot catch you sms-ing during lesson, cannot scare and bully you with my sudden stopping and bus driver way of turning. Goodbye and Thank You, Instructor Adrian Koh. =)) Also, Thanks to Instructor How HL, Instructor Khamsani and Instructor Woo HM. You guys took me for lessons before too. So Thanks. =))

Thanks for everyone's good lucks. All the good lucks works. Thanks thanks thanks .....

Maybe I'm saying things too early, but this is the BEST birthday present I've given myself.

I realised after I've passed. It's like mission accomplised. I suddenly don't have the urge to drive on the road. No feel already.

My long waited Probation Plate, and my slip to drive on the road.

My test result.

Morning everyone. My right hand is somehow hurt. There's pain whenever I tried to turn it. I guess I'm going back to school with Wendy and Louis later on to study, before Louis go to clarify maths with lecturer. Then I'll go for my driving =)). I was checking my payment history on SSDC website, and here comes the conclusion that I spend SGD$2,448.59 on my whole Class 3A driving course inclusive of my fixed instructor surcharge and my traffic police test fee. How amazed by the amount I spend.

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Home from school and driving. I don't know what to post also. I can't pass my THANK YOU card to Instructor Adr personally. That's somehow a regrets in me. In the beginning I told him I've something for him, he just said it's okay he doesn't want anything but a good news from me. But after seeing me doing that "hitting/punching instructor" action, he agreed to take the card and ask me to pass it to the customer service as they'll pass to him. Should I just believe what he said. What if he didn't receive it. It has all the words I wanna says to him, the amount of THANKS are all inside. I'll definitely missed all the days and time I'd with Instructor. All the amazing conversations, arguments, quarrels we'd during our practical lessons. All the cursing and swearing over those idiotic taxi uncles/aunties. All the "not up to sense" topics. Him telling me he's hungry, he's sleepy. Him making all the unneccessary noise to make me feel tense up and think I did the wrong thing. Him cheering me up when I get so upset about doing the wrong stuffs and knocking down the pole during ramp. Me complaining to him every single time when I got into the car that the weather is freaking hot. Me complaining to him that the uncle is so slow, the uncle don't want to give way to me. Me complaining to him that he sounds like a tape recorder constantly repeating the "did it come out to that much". I'm too used having him beside me, too used to his existence. I sounds like confessing? A big fat NO. He's just like a friend, a buddy to me. A friend that I can have endless conversation topics, arguments, quarrels with over idiotic taxi uncles/aunties, food, traffic conditions, cars with ..... I'm beginning to missed it. NOW.

I finally break down in the batheroom. Had a good crying session, yet there's remaining inside me. I guess the stress I've accumulated are too huge, and the amount of stuffs that I wouldn't want to say goodbye to. I'm too emotional and mental unstable now. I guess I'll be alright soon, and everything will be fine.

Can time just stop.?

{I said I'm alright, but inside I'm not. I'm smiling, but inside I'm not. I said I'm not crying, but inside I'm. I smile when I'm saying Goodbye, but I'm tearing and saying Goodbye inside....}
{You said I can. You told me to trust your words. I never doubt anything you said. I remember all the words you told me. The DOs and DONTs. The GOODs and BADs.....}

STRESS. Lost of confidence. Speechless. Miserable. I'm lost. I feel like having a good cry, peharps it'll make me feel much more better, much more stress-less. But, the tears just don't want to come out. Going Audrey's place later to mug, and driving at night later.

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Was home from Audrey's home and driving. Lemme just update the happening stuffs at her place. Met Wendy up at YCK station and took bus to Aud's place, Louis and Tiff was already there. Anyway, had lunch there and started mugging. Wilson and Junye then joined us later. Playing piano and guitar at her place. Of course I'm not the one playing those instrument, alright I did play a little while of piano. And we even had this scene of 3 person playing the piano together. We succeed in playing a short piece of don't know what song. Eh maybe it wasn't a song too. Anyway, Tiff took a video of it. Left Aud's place at 7plus, and headed home. Actually I was rushing home for dinner and shower as my driving lesson is at 810pm. I took a quite bathe and dinner and rush out of my place and head to driving school. It was my first driving lesson with Instructor Adr at night. Was eh not really late, but on the dot. Instructor Adr just walk over and got in at the same time I did so. I was so freaking hot and I told him to start the engine fast and switch on the aircon. He said I wear till so little still feel hot, and I was nagging at him to switch on the aircon. He blast the aircon and said "Is this okay, princess?". LOL. He boost up my confidence. Thanks a lot =)) I told him I was very stress up, and he asked me to relax. He bullied me today, and I told him I'll complain to my dad as he'll be fetching me home later. He says I can complain everything to my dad about him, but I've to make sure I clear on that very day, because he said he'd a hard time training me. I won't disappoint him, because I don't want to bang that yellow wall nicely clear by him >.<. HAHAs. I told hm if he continues to bully me, I'll cry immediately infront of him. Alright, I nearly cried and break down when mistakes starts to run out one by one. Eventually I didn't, I guess I'll scared him if that happens. He just asked me don't cry and stop bullying me, and that's when I start bullying him back. He joke with me like usual, entertain me with his lame jokes and makes me feel like wacking him. I got very worked up today, and eventually I just scream and shout inside the training car. Instructor was like panic and tries to calm me down with his usual laughter. He told me my card is still with him. Alright it wasn't my card but sis card for her fixed instructor. Sis, my instructor didn't get to see your instructor so he didn't manage to pass it to him. He promise me that he'll pass it to him on Wednesday. I told instructor that the card for him is at home. =)) I messed with his training car today, because we're almost done with every revision in circuit and we've nothing to do, so I start to mess in his car. I explore every single thing inside the car, he asked me to do so after realising I start to mess with it. Oh ya, I mount kerb and strike kerb today. Hurrary, this gets my mood from bad to worst. I told instructor I saw my daddy waiting for me outside. Ramp was the last course I did before the day ends. Instructor ask for exchange after I finish the ramp. Because I knew he'll ask me why I sit for forward, so I push the seat backwards, and he says I wanna tear off his seat. He drove the car back to parking with fast speed. And I was grabbing like mad and eventually told him to drove slower. He drop me off at the predestrian crossing. Actually I won't mind accompanying him back to the parking area. He says he'll be doing mock test on me tomorrow. =)) . Daddy fetch me home just now, I didn't complain instructor to him. Daddy says he'll give me his car to drive after I cleared, and so I can drive mommy around during sunday. But daddy didn't say if he's changing the weekend plate to normal plate. =))







你曾經　
給我多重要的 鼓勵

Home today. Not going elsewhere. Daddy isn't working but he isn't home either. He said he transfer my allowance to me and asked me to go withdraw. Anyway, I'll left it untouch unless I need it. I'm freaking tired. No idea why. Mentally and physically tired. Being accumulating stress lately. I guess my life is filled with stress. Feel like going online shopping, but I'm broke. I shall stop being so spendthrift. Weather so freaking hot, feel like going for some swim. I need to mugged for common test and semestral examination. So stress up please. Next week is a stressing week for me. Double stress.

My boys at MTV Asia Award 2008 held at Malaysia. Wasn't full 13, Hankyungie oppa and Kibumie oppa went missing. Proud of my boys, they won Artist of Korea award. Congratulation boys. Chukhahaeyo. It'd been so long since I last spoke Korean, and my Korean is getting rusty, and I somehow regretted for not continuing studying it.

是習慣 還是愛 //.




鋼琴也是黑白鍵
一樣能彈出我對你
只有滿滿的感謝

Alright, I've been updating my entry filled with my driving stories. Really sorry but most of my time are spent there. Anyway, it's driving stories again. Went driving in the morning, was almost late again but I didn't. I got into the car faster then Instructor, and he's taking his own sweet time to walk over, making me suffering under that hot sun like a roasting pig. He's like so shock seeing me here with that "Aye, I thought you say you're coming next week?". At first, I don't feel like talking back to him, but yet I still reply him with my "Cannot come meh". Alright, I win the first round of arguement. I got back my favourite 104 training car, but I attempted to spoil it. I did the most unforgiveable mistake today. I forget to release my handbrake and I just accelerate and move off. Suddenly I realise that the car isn't moving, as in the speed is damnie slow. So I went "Eh, why the car is not moving". This kuku instructor of mine still can say "Ya lor, why not moving? You check again and see what you forgotten to do". So I went checking and then I shout "OH SHIT, the handbrake. Sorry". And happily he come nagging at me, saying I try to spoil his car. If this happen during that important day in my life, I guess I'll have no face to see everyone. I did alot of wrong things today. I attempted to crash the car. It's really nearly crashing it. If that brake isn't hard enough, I guess me and my instructor will be on our way to heaven now. He didn't scold me, which makes me feel guilty. I tailgate other trainee's car. I failed to keep a safe following distance. I failed to overtake when necessary. I overshot the stop line, and there's one stop line outside the road that I nearly forget to stop. That's the stop line I always remember to stop but I fail to do it today. Instructor just step on his instructor brake and say "Stop line you still don't want to stop ah". He kept on repeating asking me what happened to me, why am I like this today, am I alright, and he even pop out with this "Hey, this is not your usual self". Alright, he asked if I'm building up stress now. And because he's my favourite instructor, I decided not to hide anything to him and told him I'm very very stress up. So he tries to calm me down, and tells me not to think about it. He said "Every trainee before they took their test, they normally turn out to be not their usual self, and so you're one of them". I hurt my thumb while doing slope, dummie instructor see I pull the handbrake in a very difficult manner and help me to pull harder, when I wanted to move off, I can't release that stupid handbrake because of that extra pull added by him. He helped me to release it and kept on laughing at me, and say is that so difficult to release it. HELLO my dear, you're a MAN whereas i'm a GIRL. It's always been so thankful that he remembers my test date, and constantly countdown for me and reminding me, and upon seeing me panic, he'll calm me down. LOL what a weirdo is he.

Thanks for being so nice towards me, but ... Can you please be fierce to me, at least for once. To let me realise I'm in the wrong.


All of the sudden I missed school life. No poly life, but my secondary school life. Poly life is never a boring one with all those wonderful cliques with me. I missed secondary school life badly, the period of time we struggled together for our Ns and Os, and everything. It's missed. Time flies, it really flies. Can time ever slow down?











期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚 一個人好累

School starts at 10 today and ends at 11. Rather boring and was like an empty trip. Had lunch at koufu with girls and Louis. Supposingly we was planning to go to Lam's place, but we ended up touring Seng Kang and Pounggol in Louis's car, and our end destination turns out to be Louis's place. Time pass damn slow today, we're like slacking at his place doing nothing. At least we did some cards magic and I got tricked by him, and we play some casino games that makes us win and lose. Was just games anyway. Then left his place at 4plus and headed home.

Supposingly to have my driving revision today. Alright, before that. Thanks to that kind student of SSDC that bought my trysell at 815am today. I woke up damn early today to check if the status was PAID, as I was wondering which poor instructor was it that gotten me and didn't see me appearing. But thanks, the status was TRYSELL SUCCESSFUL. A big relief in me that I din't skip the lesson and there isn't any poor instructor that got his student disappear. I was waiting for this 105pm slot and wanting to see if MY dearest instructor works. But I didn't manage to see it, so I gave up waiting. I think he wasn't working today since he'd been working overtime yesterday. I've to wait patiently again for tomorrow's slot, and this time round I'd to make sure HE works. It's really amazed that he asked me to go back as he wants to perfect my vertical parking and he didn't work. Alright, I forget to say this. He saw me with my girls yesterday, I mentioned before. But I din't say that he actually give us a name as the MARKET friends, because we laugh so loudly that he can hear us from inside the car and we looks like we're in the market. He's so bad lah. Anyway he got me a new name, AH HUI. Thanks ah.

Book my driving lesson just now, I was jumping for joy when I saw a slot. Because my student balance doesn't have enough money to cover the fixed instructor surcharge and the peak period surcharge, I'd to use daddy's mastercard to pay. So thank god daddy came home at the right time. Muacks daddy. =)) Uncle just gave me 30bucks. He saved me from hell to heaven. I'm quite broke recently, but I can't spend it, gotto save it up. I guess daddy told uncle about my tp, because he didn't ask me but just tell me he knows it. I was wondering why, because he'd always been quite concern about my learning process. Anyway that's not the main point. I need early rest today =)) I'm quite tired out lately. Mugging for upcoming test. Study with sis tomorrow.







太依賴﹐太習慣﹐太喜歡…不好﹗
因為太依賴﹐太習慣…就會害怕失去這種依賴和習慣…
有時候﹐會希望那天不要來…
沒有人提醒那天的到來…
或許…再見就不必說出來…

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